Allegiance

We've only been married  3 years and I was almost 52 when we got married so this whole Preacher's Wife thing really is a different thing for me.  I grew up in the Baptist Church and felt so out of place there.  As an adult, I joined the Episcopal Church and felt that I had found my home.  I still feel that way and for that same reason, I resist leaving the church and joining the Methodist Church.   I have my own ideas about God and Christ and my relationship with them and theirs with the world.  I really feel that at its core, my allegiance is to God and not to the governance of His body on earth.  


While I attend church with my husband every week, it still gives me a thrill when we are able to attend an Episcopal service.  Just a few weeks ago we were in Williamsburg and went to the Bruton Parish for Evensong.  I think it's the reverence and majesty of it all that touches me.  The focus is entirely on God, not me or you or the person across the aisle.  I alway leave feeling as if my soul has been soothed by the hand of God.  Sometimes I almost ache for it.

"O my God that I had understanding and learning and a new language in order to magnify Thy works... Everything fails me, O my Lord, but if Thou will not abandon me, I will never fail Thee."             St. Teresa of Avila,  1515-1582